Dry Spill

So I decided that my life has turned into a rut. Which is not a good sign in summer months. I'm turning my life around and looking at everything like I used to. In a positive way. Resits will be good. Whichever school I wish to go to will be good because I need to be there and be happy with what I'm blessed with. An education.

But also, my quiet time. I don't have much of it since A-levels. I picked up my bible and I just want to keep reading this psalm over and over really.

Psalm 42

As a deer thirsts for streams of water
so I thirst for you, God.
Let them lead me to your holy mountain,
to where you live.
Then I will go to the altar of God,
to God who is my joy and happiness.
I will praise you with a harp,
God, my God.

Why am I so sad?
Why am I so upset?
I should put my hope in God
and keep praising him,
my Saviour and my God.

I feel like I wrote them in a way cause it's exactly what I'm going through at the moment and these words are just so.. refreshing to me at this moment. Just like Psalm 1 and Jeremiah 29:11 are.
Like who knows, maybe one day I'll be where I want to be in life, of real. And I'll get the grades I deserve and the job I want, even though don't know what job that might be just yet.. But my future is planned out. So.. relax. I'm just gonna work hard and get to where God wants me to get. Yes? Good plan? Si, l'ho penso anch'io.

Life.

I fail at this blogging thing realllyyy, but I try. This summer is so upside down, my life feels like it's taking on a majorrr change, and I have no idea if I like change or not. I mean seriously, we're growing up. Or well.. my friends are, I still feel the same, and I still have no idea where I'm heading in life, even more now with the disappointing shock of my results. I have to resit maths, which sucks, but then I know I can up my grade, it's just when I do, where do I go?

This fork in the road of my life is bugging me, I just want it to pass, emotions are flying everywhere. Who does know what they want to do for the rest of their life? Oh I know, the lawyers, doctors, accountants and architects, but then Malta, what's left?

I'm just praying God leads me to where I need to be, who I need to see and who I need to become. My real comfort is knowing He's there with me after this past year I know I can get through this (:
So blogging world that I so often forget about then fill with more stupid ranting, I have work in.. 5 hours... The enthusiasm is coming out of my bones when I say that phrase.

Also, I want to go to Venice for my 18th, coolest thing ever right? Yeah I know (:

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