This was meant to be the saddest yet best week of my life due to the fact that it's the end.. The end of my sixth form life. Yes, I am old! I can't believe it, I mean I used to look up at old students who came to visit us at school and go "My, I can't wait to get to where they are, it must be amazing to have so much freedom and be so mature!"
Now I look back at myself and say "Oh, you naive child"
I don't know how to sum up what has happened to me in these 2 years, they have literally been the biggest roller coaster of my life. More downs then ups and twirls, getting stuck upside down in mid-air till the point were I was nauseous of my own life. But now, what do I do?
I feel like my blogs have all been about this sickening feeling of not knowing what I'm going to do with my future, and my life just feels frustrating due to the fact that I'm missing so much school and staying home.
*sigh*
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 [This is what's keeping me from breaking down]
Lenten talks have come and gone, they were tiring in the least but worth it, I just pray someone's life was changed and that they continue following God, cause I think He is the only reason I am sane at the moment. Him and my Nikon. I miss my Lime camera, I want her back ): I hope I find her soon or I'll die! Just thinking about her makes me sad.
I don't have much to say, I apologize if you are reading this, I guess this blog was one of those "I blogged just to say I blogged" posts.
I feel so devoid of feeling at the moment [apart from the sadness for my camera] let's hope this void will help my inspiration levels and God I do hope I produce a good painting today!
I think I have said enough.
Be blessed kids
