Lying in the grass

All of us seem to be having problems one time or another with our family this summer..
I wonder what it is.. My problem all started last night when i asked for my curfew to be extended by one hour.. while i was out with my sister.. and the ans was no.. and after that for asking that i got grounded... to the point where she didn't want to let me go into work this morning!! like what the hell???
Now cause I didn't want to go to the beach with them they'v taken away my laptop (im writing this blog on betsy my editing comp..) my mobile and they told me I can't go to soul survivor... Now I rly can't think of what a good christian would do...because right now I just feel like tearing their throats out..
I should have gone to gozo this weekend and all my troubles would be here in Malta... Non existant..

And tmrw Drea leaves and I won't see her for a whole month coz of my vry nice parents... Sometime's I just wish they could realise that I'm not perfect and that all the mistakes they do that I ignore.. are going to stop being ignored now that everytime I make one mistake they jump down my throat... and what's worse is my mom went back on her promise of letting me go to soul survivor... the trip I'v been planning for months and that I paid for and that was granted to me for getting into sixth form...
Cause yes I passed my O-levels.. And I'm working for my parents and I'm helping my mom with house chores... Now... What more can I do for her??
She told me i should start buying the groceries and I was like give me the list and I'll go ux... WHAT MORE CAN I DO FOR HER?!?!
maaa.. She's seriously just letting out all the stress she has on ME.. while I let it out on this stupid internet page that no one reads... and I mean who would read a whole post about me complaining about my family??

It's all mad in my opinion and I wish I had some where to escape to.. But I don't ...

I would go to the chapel... But right now as much as I know God is the only one that can resolve this.. I'm not in the mood to pray..

How horrible...

And to add insult to injury i wept my eyes out when my parents left the house.. like real tears streamed down my face.. which usually never happens unless something bad happens to me.. te last time I cried was when I was going through a hard time with the mime..

I feel claustrophobic.. Like everything's closing in

I'm gna miss Drea =[ and if I actually don't go to soul survivor... You'll find me knocking on someone's door cause I would have run away from this hell...

Sometime's we get caught up in such materialistic things that we forget that in this life we'r all the same..
As a friend of mine would say... "In the end we all die... so what's the use?"
Now I'm not saying we should use that mentality.. but seriously... some things can be avoided can't they?
Like the stress that most girls put on themselves.. to have the nicest hair, have the best boyfriend, flirt with guys just so you can gain confidence, find the perfect dress and nails, wear all the pink you can find and just laugh and pretend not to get the joke just so the boys and pick on you and call you blonde...

Don't you think it's just all a joke? In my own way I can be very materialistic, I care a bit too much about how I look when I'm out and it just frustrates me that, I have enough money to buy a whole meal at Mc Donalds but decide not to just to save money and then end up using the money on something stupid when I could have easily loved to have been more full that night I went out to eat with my friends...

But then people all over the world have no clue of what a burger actually tastes like but I have that luxury and don't use it!
How horrible..

We (including me) can get so wrapped up in the things and people around us that in the end we end up loosing who we really are to become something so materialistically fake... and i just think it's sad...

I dno why I'm writing this post just think I should let these feelings out...

Gbu all siblings
infinite x's and o's
Zoe

This vid's too funny + it's got st.aloysious pics in it... all thanks to kai :)

Gbu my siblings x

I'm not afraid of the dark, For I Live in His Light...
Those are the words I just kept singing at the end of today's meeting, which was so amazing and so touching that as soon as I came home I said I have to share it with the rest of you humans :)

So basically I thought it was going to be a really normal meeting like i didn't expect anything out of it... how WRONG was I!!!
It all began in praise where God put it on my heart that I need to start forgiving the people around me that are currently troubling me in my life so I can be able to praise Him better... and when I did I felt more freedom then I've ever felt before!! Also God put it on my heart that I do actually want children in my life, and also that He is a child Himself, He is an old person, He is a teenager, He is ALL... and although I knew all this before I don't think I ever registered it before tonight... it was so great! So praise was just amazing, I didn't want it to end... So when the talk was about to start you can imagine how I felt... I was like NOOOO I want more praise xD!

Anyway then the talk started and I must say Maria Vadia (the woman giving the talk) was unbelievably amazing and she touched my heart so much, that in the end she described exactly how i was feeling. And I had a burning feeling in my heart, which she then acknowlegded in some of us.. and I was so thankful that I wasn't the only one feeling this burning in my heart...
And I'm telling you so many feeling where let go tonight... I repented, and forgave and also forgot and erased so many scars.. And now I also know what my calling is towards my comunity.. which is so awesome!!!

I'm in such a good mood because I haven't had a night where I could seriously say I enjoyed it from begining to end... but tonight was that night!!

Here's a song that I love and that was sung tonight..





Gbu all my brothers and sisters

Zoe

Haha sorry for the emoness below siblings but i was having a rough day which got better after i zvogated in this page.. and made myself look like a complete cutter of wrists... rofl XD

So basically life is good, i mean i really can't complain.. it's just been hectic and great and beautiful! although the weather has mixed all the wires of my brain into a bunch and i still look white as paper... gay much? it's still just great cause I've learnt how to be responsible and like happy with what I have and stop dreaming about what I don't.
Great? I think so..

And last time I was like praying and I said..."Ma I've lost Hope seriously.." and like this song came on and in it, it said "My Hope is in your hands!" and I was like... coincidence much? I think not...

Oh well this might be the end of my blog, don't forget to comment... coz if you don't how will i know this blog is being seen?? huh? HUH?!

rofl much?

OHH and work? It rocks till now i mean it's funny and great and I just have to clog my ears to the swearing but the guys I work with are kick ass so that's just great :D

I think that's all i need to update... and like don't forget to suscribe to Out Of This Galaxy!

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DFTBA
Gbu
Zoe x

Uwww and today i started the brio challenge hope i manage to do it all...that would be really kick ass if i manage! xD

Did I blind you with the limeness of it all :P? My motto is that this summer I must atleast wear some colour and I blame bett for getting me out of my blackness... but i Still ADORE black :)

Is it possible for our hearts to ache?
Is it possible for our hearts to break?
I know my heart aches.
I know my heart breakes.
But I also know,
That for some reason
He lets my heart ache.
He lets my heart break.
For a reason I go through this
Who Knows if one day
God will let me know why..

Sometime's I just feel unappreciated by some friends, that tell me I can trust them.. But then don't trust me back at all, or just dn't notice me until they nd to.. I mean why call me a friend, when you ignore me when you don't think I'm of use for you? They call themselves christians saying that they appreciate everyone and although we'r not all perfect, I'm not saying I am.. But atleast I try hard not to hurt the people around me and if i do, I end up hurting myself along with hurting them, but some people just don't care.. They just rly can't give a shit can they? I don't call those real friends.

The thing that pains me the most at the moment... I cn't watch it but i'll leave it here for you to watch it...





If you see from 3:50 onwards.. you'll see how I feel at the moment...

Gbu x